So tomorrow is my birthday and I want to reflect on the years that affected who I am today.
People around me have always been on this time limit and their lives are planned to the tiniest detail. I was never that type of person. I too have dreams and passions, but I never felt the need to keep it age restricted. If that were the case, I feel like my anxiety levels will go off the charts. At the age of 23, I am currently doing nothing and my life is at a pause. It's always hard for me to admit that, but then I realized, maybe it isn't a bad thing. I'm okay with doing nothing.
When will I ever get the chance to do nothing?
When I say I am doing nothing, it's not like I am lying here staring at the ceiling. I have a job that is not my dream job, but I am able to take care of the little things. I have a bachelor's degree, but I am waiting on a response for graduate nursing school. Even though I have been waiting months and months, my mind will be positive until that response shows up in the mail. The waiting game is eating me, but that's a given. I have a boyfriend. To make matters a little complicated, we are currently long distance. He is in Oklahoma for the military. I shouldn't fret. He's there for me even though he is not physically beside me. I have family and friends, specifically people who include you in their life and happily accepts who you are. My parents are the most understanding, supportive, and positive people I know and it amazes me. Not once have they told me to start my life. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to let my parents take care of me forever. Please don't think of me that way. I always ask them What should I do? They always respond it's up to you. Those simple words mean everything. It IS up to me and it always has been. Just thinking about their support overwhelms my heart. Nothing actually feels like everything if I were think about these important details in my 23 year old life.
In honor of my birthday, let's give some advice to old me.
1. Stop caring what others think of you. Seriously, who cares. If what they're saying has no positive affect on your life, then it simply does not matter. The only thing that matters is how you think of yourself.
2. Don't think about the success of others. You'll get there. Just like Mulan, "The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of them all."
3. Laugh more. Laugh with the people you love. Most importantly, laugh at yourself. There will be multiple times where you embarrass yourself. But you know what? IT HAPPENS.
4. Stay positive. There are SO many times in your life that you will get discouraged. It will always be okay. If it doesn't work out, it's not meant to be. Believe in your fate.
5. Be forever young. There is a difference between young spirited and childish. Eat whatever the hell you want. Dance like Beyonce when you are drunk. Snapchat duck faces once in a while (KNOW YOUR LIMIT). No one ever wants to be around a sour puss kill joy.
I truly hope you enjoyed this positive note.
Always,
Kristel.
